Happy New Year!

[ella_rose88]

Wishing all my followers a Happy New Year. May 2018 be a wonderful year for you all :)

My New Years was... well I did nothing big. My parents and I had a bbq dinner and then watched Gilmore Girls: A Year in the Life (my mum hadn’t seen it yet). I then binged watched SMILF (which I did find quite funny) before I put on Doctor Who series 10 as I rang in the New Years.

Now at first, I didn’t mind doing not much because I do find New Years overrated and one of the two friends I have was busy with her family (though she is having major family issues). But then yesterday when I messaged my friend to see how she is she tells me that her other friends had contacted her and invited her out to cheer her up. I told her I was glad (I was) and then said I was doing nothing (which I thought would prompt her to invite me like she usually does), but she said nothing else to me for the rest of the day or night, she didn’t even message me to say Happy New Years.

This morning, I messaged her to say Happy New Year and then check my FB and she’s posted happy pics from last night. That further upset me because I would have liked to have spent the night having fun and helping to cheer her up. Not only that but I don’t have many friends. Just two. So it really hurt.

So I then messaged her telling her that it made me sad when I wasn’t invited last night as I would have liked to have spent the time with her and help cheer her up. It’s been over an hour but I’ve not heard from her yet. Either she’s still recovering, dealing with her family or is now mad at me. Either way, I felt I had to tell her how it made me feel because she needed to know. I hope she responds soon so we can talk about it.

Comments

[jesterlady]

Oh that’s sad and I’ve been there. I think being honest was really good though and I hope it works out.

[ella-rose88.livejournal.com]

Sadly it didn’t work out. Her response really left me feeling sad, depressed and disappointed. It lacked any understanding of my mental illness. She basically told me that we need space because I’ve been only hanging out with her (since I don’t have many friends - which is because I have massive social anxiety) and that I need to make new friends. Which is hard for me as I find it hard to make friends because of my aniexty and my fear of being rejected by friends again.

I’ve been crying but I’ve stopped now. I just feel like I’ve been such a good and supportive friend. When she needed to go to hospital months ago, I went with her and stayed for hours because she was scared. And now I feel like I’m not being treated the same and it hurts because I thought this friend truly understood me and accepted me. Now it seems I was wrong.

[jesterlady]

Oh hon, I’m sorry. That’s never a good feeling. I find it very difficult to make friends too so I get it. Feel free to yell if you ever need to! ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

[sherrilina.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry, that sucks. :(

[sherrilina.livejournal.com]

Happy New Year to you too! I hope that your 2018 ends up being great despite this depressing start with your friend. :( *hug*

[schweet_heart.livejournal.com]

Aw, I'm sorry. That sounds really upsetting *hugs* I hope 2018 improves for you!

[kitty_fic]

I'm sorry your new year's didn't get off to a good start. I hope things look up for you! <3